My dear brother Francis,
Over the past few months I have written several letters to
you. It was a way to prepare for Solemn Vows and this life which you have
inspired. Today I write to you again as your Feast Day draws near, I find it always
good to touch base with you near October 4.
I read something recently about you which I have not really
considered. I read: “Francis was one of the most free people who ever lived –
internally free, that is.” I suppose like the rest of world I always look at
you with the outside lens. I see what you did, how you lived, what you desired
and worked for and how that still impacts people’s lives today. I guess at
times, even as your brother I fail to look deeper and realize why I and so many
others are attracted to the way you lived. And yet the answer is in the above
statement I read – your freedom. And is that not what I desire? To be free in
Christ, like you were? To abandon into God’s love and to surrender to the
working of the Holy Spirit?
I know that freedom doesn’t mean easy. I know that freedom
is about continual conversion. I know that freedom means a daily voicing of “my
heart is ready, O Lord, my heart is ready.” It is maybe now on the other side
of pilgrimage to your home town and my Solemn Vows that I can grasp this
freedom a little more. Or maybe I know it as a deeper desire or maybe even as
living in it a bit more – a bit freer even. I grasp it not in big, grand ways
but like you in little ways. To discover where love and wisdom penetrate my
living. To seek peace and contemplation as part of my daily living. To be in
awe of God’s continual goodness, no matter what. To delight in God’s mercy and
grace each day. This is why you were free, isn’t it?
It comes back to simplicity and simplicity means we have a
conversion of heart each day. This conversion means freedom for we release
ourselves from the bondage of demands, expectations and projects – we make
space. Make space to be with our God, to dialogue with Christ and to allow the
Spirit to transform us again and again. It is in the daily transformation that
leads to true freedom, isn’t it? And you knew this and abandoned into this
truth. My brother, help me to see ways each day that I too can do this, for
freedom is a great gift which I know calls me to the fullness of life.
You know as I walked the streets of Assisi, I couldn’t help
but think that it felt like a noisy maze. I thought about you and how you
needed to move out of the maze to encounter God in the quiet and in the open.
Not running way from people but rather being able to be present to them away
from the distractions of life. It is now as I ponder that, that I understand
more about freedom. The heart and soul in tune led you out of the maze into the
freedom of God. I desire this in my living.
As I think back to my Solemn Vows there were several moments
of freedom, where my heart soared and drew deeper into God’s awesomeness. The
way a song filled the air, the embrace of loved ones and my brothers, the
moment of the Litany of the Saints, the joy which echoed – all of these moments
were glimpses of freedom because I was simply present. The breath of the Spirit
drew me in and I was free.
My dear brother the simplicity of your wisdom is amazing to
me. You didn’t get caught up in theories or politics rather you got caught up
in freedom and because of this you encountered the depths of love. As your
brother I too desire this. In the time and place in which I live, in the work
which is mine to do, in the learning, in the ministering and in the seeking may
I always come to know and encounter the freedom that you did. May I always
strive to be open to the freedom which you knew… the freedom which is Christ in
the every day, in everything and everyone. When moments consume me with worldly
wants and goals may I not get caught up, rather may I leave the maze and so
grow in freedom.
My dear brother Francis as we remember and celebrate you and
your entry into eternal life please pray for me, pray for all of us. Pray that
we breath out the consuming ways we can be caught up with and rather breath in the
freedom which you knew and now are embraced in. Continually show us in this day
and age that Christ in the love of God and in the openness of the Holy Spirit
dwells with us and desire only our freedom.
My dear brother thank you for reminding me again that this
freedom is what continually draws me to the Source of Life.
Happy Feast Day!
Until next time,
Your Little Brother Michael